July 5, 2024 - “I am talking about now”

Sometimes there are too many good things to be done at once. This is a lucky problem to have, and it happens very rarely, but sometimes, you sit on warm stone and dip your legs in the pool and think about what to have for dinner and, sometimes (I am talking about now), a joint makes you cough so hard you are laughing, and colors look clearer then, brighter right as the day is dulling, and the moment will not last too long because there are things you’ll want to fix once you start looking, like — there are more ants than you thought. They all walk quickly in small, stressful circles and you can’t stop thinking about the scene in Oldboy where Mi-do says that very lonely people hallucinate ants, and you know these little ones are real because you sweep them off the counter every morning, but the exceptionally large one in the bathroom has you less convinced. You are still coughing. You find out that spit in the grass looks like spider webs.