September 3, 2024 - “All the time”

For a few weeks after he leaves, you find it hard to be alone, a feeling that whole heartedly infuriates you because there had been a time, not long ago at all, where you loved it. Preferred it, even. You think about going to the bookstore, the beach, taking a walk and getting a beer, think about sitting down in the grass and seeing how strong the sun will get. You think about doing a lot of things you like to do, but the way you did them so happily on your own is something you are having trouble remembering, and you know time heals everything, but you are wondering what you’re supposed to do in all the time until then.